One of my rituals for each new year is to choose a word to influence me for the year. My word for 2011 is EXPERIMENT. To support my EXPERIMENTAL focus, I commit to post the results of a new experiment each Sunday of this year.
I appreciate all of the suggestions ya’ll offered last week for my last two experiments of this year. I’d even chosen two of your recommendations. Ya know what they say about plans making God laugh though.
So God chose this (and maybe even next) week’s experiment. I spent this week balancing the bitter with the sweet. That’s always been one of my favorite Carole King songs. It helped me a lot this week.
Our family found out on Monday that the cancer in my sister’s body has spread to her brain. So here I am, with other family members, simply being present with my sis.
On Wednesday, she wasn’t even sure who I was, but she let me help her eat broccoli and mashed potatoes. That’s the last time she ate this week. She also let one of her sons, his wife and one of their kids know she knew and loved them.
On Thursday, she took a break from her naps to let our mom know she knew, recognized and loved her.
On Friday, we spent more than an hour flipping through her favorite magazines. On Tuesday, she wouldn’t have known what a magazine was.
On Saturday, in between naps, she kept trying to take off her oxygen mask an hand it to me. When I asked she what she wanted me to do with it – the look she gave me not only let me know she understood the question, but gave me her reply – VERY CLEARLY. She also let her other son, his wife and their twin girls know she knew and loved them.
Today, as we await news from the docs tomorrow about what The Next Step will be, she returned an “I Love You” sign language message back to me and she took off her oxygen mask just long enough to get her husband to kiss her.
Yep, this Life thing is one holy gig and it’s SO Full, of the bitter with the sweet. Gratitude doesn’t even begin to sum it up.
No special questions this week. Just blessin’s all over all of you who’ve lived in this space.