I had my biannual appointment with my neurologist today. For 21 years I’ve been living with this body that has multiple sclerosis in it. Some days MS is the best thing that ever happened to me. Some days it’s not.
Today it’s not.
Today my doc and I discussed the possibility of some new meds on the market. The one that might help me most involves significant heart monitoring because this drug can result in heart attacks. HELLO?
When I got home from the appointment, I researched the drug even more and was glad I said, ‘no thanks’.
So now I’m sitting here with the realization that although SO MUCH is happening in the War Against MS, I (and so many others) still have many battles to face.
And that’s where the shift happens.
My life is GREAT.
Am I disappointed with how some parts of it are playing out? Sure!
Would I trade the lessons MS has taught me for anything? NO!
So for now, I’m going to take a nap, get up and move on. That’s what makes the most sense to me.
How do you balance fear of the UnKnown with accepting What Is?
13 thoughts on “shift happens…”
How do I balance it? Well, some days better than others…. When I get it all figured out I will let you know.
will be awaiting word, Susan! 🙂
Knowing God is in control anyway and worry is just wasted time. Love you my friend!
One day riding from Whiteville back home to the Lake, it came to me “Just not worry,”for what do we know to worry about anyway.I gave it up !!! I had been born to worry,but not for years now.
love you, Lisa
how do I balance that scary-not incharge-wobbly thing? when I reach that tipping point, the words of Lucy Talbott come back to me that I can relax because “the job of God is already taken.” So I then return to witnessing rather than running the show.
i try to remind myself that it’s not all about me, there’s a bigger shift happening and im just a little piece of it
sometimes it’s hard, and i dont want to accept it. that’s usually when i call you or my mom. other times i can take a deep breath and i know there are somethings you just can control and that’s what makes life interesting
I figure if I’m not pissed off and can laugh, I’m ok.
But I can also be real good at stuffing anger.
That not much help is it?
I know this sounds a little hokey, and probably not in line with those who have faith that someone else is pulling the strings, but the best thing I’ve learned throughout my spiritual search is to LIVE IN THE MOMENT! Things will always change, sometimes back to the “same ol’ same ol'”, sometimes to something truly unexpected and amazing; but in the big picture, it is I who have ( “has”? Please excuse the possible grammar error) to receive the happening, and HOW I receive it will have an effect on the future. It’s all about Karma, baby!!!
I “try” (key word – and I certainly fail alot) to put my focus on something else – or someone else, that has a need greater than mine and as you say “move on.” Many – maybe most – times I don’t understand – don’t have an answer, but believing in a loving God, I have to rely on my faith in Him – and trust that the answers will come later. Lisa – you’re an amazing lady! 🙂
Beth, AMEN, dear friend. xoxo
Jonnye, what a holy day that must have been for you. love you, too! thankssssssss…
Carol, THANKS for invoking the spirit of Lucy. “the job of God is already taken.” indeed. ::very good sigh::
Jessica, ahhhhhhh… there goes that whole ‘i’m part of something much bigger than me’ thang! 🙂 thanks~ (and you’re always a HUGE piece in my world, darlin’)
Amma (aka Robin), helps a LOT! love that laughter reminder…
Mary Louise, LIVE IN THE MOMENT ~ not hokey at ALL. thanks for the karma-kall dear woman!
Jo Anne, thanks for the assurance that I’m not the only one who dances with that whole “try” thing :). i celebrate you and your faith. ::good sigh::
BFF, I hate MS.
I hope my previous comment didn’t seem flippant. I should have gone on to further explain that I SINCERELY believe you must be racking up mucho positive Karma this time around!! As I heard Ginger say of you once, you’re our very own guru! Your consistent grace, humor, and generosity in the face of all that you experience puts you right up there on the Bodhisattva level in my book! (Hmmm, I might have to go play a little Steely Dan in your honor…)
When the unknown or fear creep in, I bring myself back to living in the moment, and just TRUST that whatever will be, will be!
I surround myself with dear souls like you, Lisa, to support me in being grounded and remind me of what is really important in life!